My account of loveMy account of love,My account of love by Smoke-and-Bone
I didn't even believe in love until I fell for someone and sometimes I think its the worst thing that happened to me. Like, it starts out great, euphoric, you kinda feel like you are the only one to feel this way about someone then things turn to the worst. You lose the euphoric feeling except those few rare times. You get jealousy issues, except mine aren't about based around them having with certain other people, unless I know something specific has happened in the past, no, I get stupid jealousy issues when she gets to go drink and have fun without me.
Ive cried and cried and slammed my laptop shut among other things I am violent because it feels like I am pulling all the weight and she's doing nothing and unless I start our conversations or anything like that, it basically doesn't happen until hours later.
I swore if I was ever unhappy, I would leave, but now I am the idiot who wont leave. Kind of tempted to go back to bad habits.